so.....i guess i can come right out and say i'm pregnant now. it's time to face the music and just own up to all my crazy mood swings, bloating body, and odd eating habits. i am 17 weeks along it feels like it was just two weeks ago i was up at 3am thinking about the pregnancy test i was going to take when i woke up. i guess andy was up at the same time so we just decided to do it at 3am. there was no doubt about that little plus sign. it was the moment we had been waiting 10 months for...or was it? about oct of 2009 i was having horrible headaches and wasn't sleeping well. andy had given me a blessing to help me cop and during that blessing he said something about praying more often. i will admit i hadn't been very good about my personal prayers so i decided to try it out. one day while in the middle of a migraine i decided to say a little prayer. the image that came to my mind is still ingrained into my memory. it was a little girl with huge brown eye and cute brown curls. the next words were "you want me to have a baby?" the next moment a huge warm confirmation came over me and i knew that was what heavenly father was trying to tell me.
immediately following this manifestation of the spirit, i burst into tears. i didn't want to get pregnant yet. no where in my being did i want to be "that mormon girl" who gets knocked up before their first year anniversary. i got myself under control (i thought) and went to tell andy what had happened. i sat down on the couch and told him something horrible had happened. i then burst into another long stream of tears that lasted 10m or so. i couldn't speak or even show my face. andy at this point was concerned for my life and started asking questions about what happened and to see if he could guess what my concern was. about 20m later i managed to blubber something about prayer, baby, not ready, and then began sobbing once more. andy sat back and said, "you think we are supposed to have a baby?" i nodded and he replied "IS THAT IT? i thought you were DYING or something. a baby isn't that bad". he obviously wasn't as concerned as i was. :) come to find out, during the blessing he gave me a few days previous, he ALSO had a similar impression about a little girl but didn't want to tell me about it...i wonder why? hehe
after that there was a lot of prayer and temple going and we both felt like it was what needed to happen. it wasn't until july that we got pregnant and we were so excited to have the wait over with. then it hit me-I'M PREGNANT!
10 weeks later, lots of prayer and support from family i am happy to say that i am pregnant and excited about it. we think we are having girl but we are having the ultrasound Dec 3. i think i needed a year to get used to the idea of having a kid and i sure am grateful that i have had another 4 months to let the fact sink in.
we don't know where we will be living as of yet-andy is done with school and we are trying to get hired on somewhere. we have applied to alaska, iowa, ohio, texas, idaho, washington, and nevada. we'll see what comes from it.
we are excited for the changes that are coming. i must admit that i am excited about this thanksgiving. i'm already wearing stretchy pants, i have the appetite of a hippo, and if anyone mentions the fact that i have eaten twice as much as anyone there, i will pull out the classic "eating for two" card. LOVE IT!!!!!!
